johnny van jones: sorry got d/c'd

I kinda disconnect myself. At least in this town. I hang out with a lot of different people but I haven't really entrenched myself into any groups. I don't have a crew. I spend big chunks of my days alone because it's easier that way. I eat alone, I walk to school alone, I think alone.

Could be a selfish habit. No. It is a selfish habit. I avoid connecting with people because I know connection doesn't last. We're human, we don't last. The only person that I'm sure will never leave me, is me. That's a selfish ass thought. A selfish ass lie.

I forget that I'm human. I hunger for human connection. I want to love. I just need to stop acting like I don't want to.

Radiohead - Weird Fishes/Arpeggi